Buttaflaus

I feel so strange. I know I'm still in love with someone, and that if they came up to me and things were just a little different... just enough that it would be okay to say yes... I would. I would drop everything else and be with him.
But there's this guy... I've seen him two, maybe three times at Waffle House. Last night though was the first night I actually got to have a one-on-one conversation with him. Just me and him, talking. And turns out he's pretty amazing! I mean, we obviously have our differences, no two people are alike exactly, but really? There isn't much. We like the same colours [All/rainbow haha], we drink similar things, we have similar hobbies and interests and views, he doesn't do the typical flowers and animals for dates and I don't like getting those, he likes to bake and I like to bake, he likes the same classical composers that I do [And god knows it's hard enough to find someone that just likes the music, let alone can NAME composers.] and just... Ugh. So much. But there are a few drawbacks.
One, I doubt he likes me. Yeah that's what all girls say, but he's so... SUPER skinny lol. Tiny thing, which I normally don't like, but at least he's tall lol. Besides, he had a picture of a tiny little asian on his phone. Asians are super thin and have like, no boobs. The ones that do are totally perky. Look at me, you just can't have perky boobs at my cup size.
Two, He's 38. 5 years younger than my mother, 3 years OLDER than my mother's fiance, 17 years older than me. Now, age doesn't bother ME, but it does a lot of people. I mean, people freaked when I fell for someone just a few years younger than me, what would they do if they saw me with someone almost two decades older??
Three, He hates my dad. -_-; I guess they had some argument based on a conversation about engines, of course, and he called my dad an idiot. I can only IMAGINE how that went. Yes, my dad can be difficult sometimes, but he isn't an idiot by a long shot. Maybe he wasn't a total expert on whatever was being talked about, but most people aren't, you know?

Anyway, yeah. I'm totally torn. I love flirting with him, because it's just so easy, you know? He gives me total butterflies, even in between texts. And he apparently likes me in some degree, or at least likes talking/flirting, because it seems he made a trip from Winchester to upper "Georgetown" to Waffle House to see me. Last night I was there and he stayed just about as long as I did, which was the END of third shift, at 7. He left at maybe 6:30 or so. Tonight, he was home by 1. And, he took and sent me a picture of him at Waffle House, so I wouldn't feel guilty about not being up there.

I am SO confused. I know I like him, and I can easily picture being with him, but then again... I want someone that my family can welcome with open arms, you know? Someone that I can do the same for. How would either of our families look at a 21 and 38 year old being together? Like, I was born when he was probably leaving home. I'm a baby in age compared to him, if not mentally at least physically.
If people can't handle me having feelings for someone 6 years away from my age, how in the name of Hades can I even try for someone I like that's 17 away, AND has a bad history with my dad?

Idk. All I know is I smile when I see his picture. :]