Happy New Year's Eve, or Final Day of the Year, however you call it.
2009 has not been my best year. I have to admit, it's been one of the worst. Not the absolute worst, that was probably 2006, 2007, or... no, I think 2008 was the worst for me. The most grief I have ever had to endure was 2008, and I'm quite thankful it's behind me. But 2009 was pretty damn rough as well. I'd like to take this time to flashback and look at how I remember 2009 for me, and those immediately around me. 

January 2009
1st- I rang in the New Year with my Mom, Step-Dad, Two Sisters, Dog, and my Step-Dad's friend, at the Closet-Bedroom-Apartment.
16th- We celebrated my youngest sister's birthday at the same apartment. As I carried her cake into the living room, I hit the ledge with the cake, taking a chunk of it off, and the whole cake landing on the floor; Luckily, it was right side up. AJ was here for that, and myself, and my two sisters, and my mom, and my step-dad.
I think it was the end of January, beginning of February, that we had a nice snow-storm, in which I took a LOT of wonderful pictures.


February 2009
Snow storm continued, Sara and I took a lot of awesome winter pictures.


March 2009
My mom, youngest sister, and step-dad left for Washington State, taking the dog with them. Saying good-bye was very difficult, for myself, and everyone else involved.
30th- Matt's birthday. I didn't get to celebrate it with him this year :\



April 2009
My mom's birthday month, and she wasn't here for me to say Happy Birthday to her.


May 2009
Sara, Chase, and many others graduated High School finally. Lots of celebration went on, and I still couldn't make it to see Sara walk, as Chase opted out.
14th- AJ's 19th birthday. Yayyy!



June 2009
1st- Blogged about this day. Got my 360 and ipod! XD

15th- Sara and Chase made it to One year of dating. 
I didn't get to hang out with a lot of people this month, they were all involved with either their significant others, or other friends. I remember pretty much loathing this entire month honestly.
I did, however, become slightly obsessed with Rob Pattinson's music, and it brought me out of a serious time of depression. I started smiling again. Real, honest to god, smiles.



July 2009
4th- The day was rainy, and spent doing just about nothing. No parade, and no fireworks this year. My dad finally drove me down the street a bit to try and see the fireworks, but between the rain, and the trees, we couldn't see anything, and so we came home. I posted a blog about the day.
5th- Blogged about this day.


August 2009
1st- My 19th birthday. Wasn't so hot. My birthday isn't a day to celebrate for me, not after my 2008 fiasco. It just depresses me when the 1st comes along now, and even more so that I was in my final "teen" year.
10th- Mar-Mar's 14th birthday. I think she enjoyed not being 13 anymore honestly.


September 2009
11th- September 11th. Hard to believe it'd been 8 whole years since the Twin Towers fell.
14th- My babies turned one whole year old! Time has FLOWN this year, seriously.

17th- Chase's 19th birthday. Tough to get through, just because I'd have liked to have been there, and told him "Hey, Merry Birfday :3", but I couldn't. So, hard day of course.
September, I had a "boyfriend" kind of. I though I had an escape from my life, someone to share life with, however menially. I knew it wouldn't be a LONG relationship if it worked, but I liked the guy, and he apparently liked me. But, we agreed we acted on impulse, and it was blown to dusty bits, if it had ever been anything to blow on.
20th- Blogged about it.
24th- Blogged about my life in general.
27th- Blogged about what was on my mind at the time.


October 2009
1st- Blogged about a life theory.
5th- Joshie's birthday. He would have been 19. Blogged about it.
9th- Blogged. Began the first few steps towards making up with Sara.
10th- Blogged about hypnosis. Felt rejuvenated for the first time in ages.
31st- Halloween. Took Marissa around the blocks a few times for some candy. Thought Sara wouldn't be home, took a shortcut down her street to Becky's house, saw her AND chase... My chest hurt, and I nearly had a panic attack, so Marissa and I walked as fast as possible past the house, and around the corner. Marissa and I walked with Matt to McDonald's to eat, then got picked up and taken to Rocky. Jerk at Rocky made Matt leave, and I felt like shit. I felt like it was my fault, that I could have, SHOULD have done something more for him, to make him feel better. Megan came too, and Jess, and Barnett. Devan danced, and was amazing as usual. Megan got up on stage! Bitter-sweet night. Had a lot of fun, but desperately missed Matt.


November 2009
1st- Rocky again, man I was wiped at the end of the day! Went alone this time, AJ, George, Kyle, and Ryan met up with me though. First time seeing AJ in a WHILE. He looked great, but my chest hurt because I knew he wasn't staying in Kentucky much longer. Stupid Marines. Josh Clifton was there, and was drunkenly flirting. But it was nice talking to him. Never really had a conversation with him before, so it was nice. He's a lot better than I'd always heard lol. Came home and like, died.
7th- Colleen Owen shot herself... I found out the next day.
8th- Beside myself, after finding out Colleen died. My day was spent crying, and I even went to the park, where Sara consoled me. It was kind of awkward, having only seen her so many times I could count on one hand. But it was nice.
9th- Chris came over to console me about Colleen too. I really enjoyed him being there, even though he didn't stay long. Been a long time since I'd seen him, as well.
10th- Marissa is in a relationship with a boy! I hear a lot about him, his name is Lee McKnight. :]

26th- Thanksgiving. I got what I wanted for the Holidays! My family came home finally. My mom, sister, and Step-Dad came home! They left the dog in Colorado though, which I was very upset about. My youngest sister had grown up so much! Her head nearly came up to my neck!! Thanksgiving didn't have much food, and wasn't ready until late that night [11pm] but it was worth it. I was beyond happy that I had my family back finally.


December 2009
Ahhh the final month. I can happily say I'm glad it's over. So much, so much, so much.
Started work at Amazon.com as a Picker. My rates were top notch for the first few days. I had to constantly be told to take a break, or lunch, and that I'd have time when I had a break to do more. Also the month I was "fired" or "quit", not sure yet how it is. But after a work-related injury [that I'm STILL feeling] I had to take a couple of days off of work, and during those days, the company I worked for [Belcan Staffing] wouldn't answer their phones, and their voice-mailbox was constantly full, leaving me unable to leave a message stating I couldn't come in for work. Turned in my badge upon picking up my second check.
1st- Chris's birthday. He had a party, I wasn't invited, or even told about it, by him at least.
4th- Sara's birthday. She had a good time I think.

19th- Blogged about Christmas.
20th- Finally blogged about Colleen, after avoiding blogging all of November.
24th- Christmas Eve! I'm so excited! Blogged a HUGE blog XD
30th- Blogged about my and my sister's Facebook Name Change.
31st- This blog! Blogging about the end of the year.


My hopes for the New Year?
My Chinese horoscopes are looking good. Year of the Tiger, which gets along WELL with the Horse, my sign. It's a Yang year, just as I am the Yang Symbol [the Yang of the Yin-Yang sign of completion]. The year's element is Metal, which is my own element. Looks to be a year for looking up! Since the forecast so to speak for 2009 turned out almost exactly as it had said, I'm glad my 2010 is looking up. :]
Maybe now I can finally have a year with no grief. A break in the streak. 2005, 2006, 2007, 2008, and 2009. Maybe the decadial turn is going to turn my luck. I certainly hope so. Here's hoping, and wishing, and praying, and living on. <3 Rest in Peace Colleen, and Happy New Year to you, Hannah, Jesse, Josh, Grammy, and Grampa. <3 I think of you guys all the time.