RADiO MiX

Where were you when the world stopped turning?
You are my sunshine, my only sunshine. You make me happy, when skies are grey.
Don't worry, Be happy!
I'm not paralyzed, but I seem to be struck by you.
When you're goin' through hell, keep on goin', don't slow down; If you're scared don't show it, you might get out, 'fore the Devil even knows you're there.
I've had my moments, days in the sun; Moments, I was second to none; Moments, when I knew I did what I thought I couldn't do.
Let the bodies hit the floor.
Love me or hate me, it's still an obsession. If you love me, thank you! If you hate me, fuck you!
Such a lonely day, Shouldn't exist, It's a day that I'll never miss, Such a lonely day, And it's mine, The most loneliest day of my life, And if you go, I wanna go with you, And if you die, I wanna die with you, Take your hand and walk away.

Just a few lines of some of the songs that remind me of you. I hear them everywhere, and all I can do is think about it. I tried to vow it wouldn't affect me, and I tried to tell myself that I would be fine, and that my days of crying about you are done. But I lied to myself apparantly. I'm sick of it, but all I'm doing is getting sicker. I want to leave, even though that's weak of me. I don't want to tell you about what I feel, because you don't care. You said so yourself. I hate being sad over you. I wish I could just get the fuck over it. Over you. But I can't. Damn you, I can't move a day forward without falling three days behind the instant I allow a single moment of weakness into my heart. I'm jealous of all the couples I see. I'm semi-desperate to have that. To have SOMEone, ANYone there, holding me. But I know I would feel worse the instant I think that, because I know that it's not you. They wouldn't be you, and if they're not you, they're not good enough. No one ever will be. Now there's a pleasant thought. There's so much damn emotion I want to tell you, show you, but you'll never listen. There's so many questions I want to ask you, but you'll never answer. I swear to god I hate you! I hate every single damn thing about you... But I can't help but love you. >sigh<>